Come my dying day I will have no regrets.
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Come my dying day I will have no regrets.
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Come my dying day I will have no regrets.
Spiritual Awakening…UNDERWAY!
It’s About the Energy
It was obvious from birth I was different from most my age. Weighing in at 9 lbs. 15 oz. and 23 inches long, I was big.
Not stopping there, I continued to grow, until I was 5′ 9″ and 11 years old. Not remarkably tall for an adult woman, but awkwardly tall at that age.
It wasn’t only my height that set me apart though. It was my brain and the way it functioned, received, and processed data.
Aware I was always a visual learner, it wasn’t until adulthood and the birth of my oldest son that I really began to analyze the lenses I used to look at the world.
Knowing we were painfully similar at times, I began searching out answers to nurture his gifts at a really young age.
What type of energy will you contribute?
The word “energy” started presenting itself in many formats. One that would become a constant in my life as a mother, was “Your son is extremely high energy! He’s non-stop hyper. His mouth is never silent.”
Yes!! This was all quite accurate, but buried deep within that hyperactive, uniquely verbal, unsilencable tornado was a highly intelligent, profoundly gifted child. It became my mission to seek out ways for him to best be understood, and the other 3 children that followed as well.
In my early years, especially as a nurse, I had bought into the whole ADD/ADHD diagnosis. Now I know many of the psych diagnosis are only there to help Western medicine physicians categorize and medicate phenomenon that don’t make sense in this unnatural world.
Time, and critical nurse analysis, have caused me to come to the conclusion its not the individual that is “disordered,” its our society.
Our society is so out of balance with its natural order, that these children, and adults, who were born more tuned into their natural environment, are out of rhythm, out of sync with the false paradigm orchestrated around us.
I knew I was going against the grain back then, but I set out with a new intent. To raise my children so that society DOES NOT strip them of their spirit’s and the spiritual gifts bestowed upon them.
That conscious decision as a young adult has completely altered the way I look at life. I began to turn more inward, to my unique extraordinary self.
I DID see things differently, and having gone through a period where I had healed significant childhood scars, even more ENERGY was bestowed upon me.
It became my life’s high, seeking out opportunities where I could get that solid self-gratifying energy rush.
I knew a primary source was caring for others; my patients, their families, my children. People would ask how I could do what I did, give so freely from my heart, and my response was, “I do it for selfish reasons.” Because doing so makes me feel better.
Flash forward 30 years, and my initial discovery of “energy” has grown exponentially. Now it has other words I may use to describe it; chi, Prahna, Holy Spirit, ect. The life force that truly makes us human. The life force that is purposefully being drained from humanity. (But that’s a whole other article.)
Any more, at my age, absolutely everything I do, and all that I see is “energy” focused.
Decades ago, gradually leaving the world of 3-dimensional living, moving more directly into a 5-dimensional paradigm, with my visual acuity the strongest in the non-physical realms. Frequencies of higher consciousness that many might argue aren’t even real, I am capable of seeing as clear as any sun-filled day.
Consciously knowing that all I do is focused on cultivating and harvesting energy. In other words, living in the world of art and creativity. Whether its gardening, writing, crafting, nurturing a pet or family member, exercising. All that I do ends with the result of positive energy generated. And, in doing so, keeps me on a positive upward growth curve.
Knowingly, those skills and talents had been focused on my own self-healing, and that of my family for quite some time.
Last year, the first year to break that cycle. All “energy” generated was poured into my new creative sense of being, knowing my day to step up on a bigger platform was almost at hand.
The by-product of years of tending my fields for their best harvests paying off. There was nothing but bright lights and wide open spaces out in front of me.
I see this as no chance coincidence, the vision I had always shared with my sons, “We will be climbing above, when everyone else has fallen,” having come true. Though, never could I have imagined it so literally. Yet, I know God has prepared me for this time.
My Light within emitting more radiance than it ever has. The power of that energy just beginning to make itself known.
It’s all in the “Energy”. Staying aware of it, and moving it in the right direction. The time for me now … to take it over the top!
I know I have crazy talents lying dormant within me. The truth is, the majority of us do. The truth is the majority of us will never discover the great wealth we carry within because we’re so busy chasing material wealth, the novelties in 3-dimensional living.
A new paradigm has opened though. A new vision of the planet beginning to take shape. Each day more and more individuals waking up to that which has lied dormant within for a lifetime.
I move forward … my heart calm, my soul at peace, knowing inside me lies the power to change the world … and the drive to do so. I step out into the new year, 2021, filled with strength, courage, and grace. Time has come to step into myself because … Revolution Begins With Me.
Namaste.
It’s About the Energy
It was obvious from birth I was different from most my age. Weighing at 9 lbs. 15 oz. and 23 inches long, I was a big new born.
Definitely not stopping there, I continued to grow, and didn’t stop until I was 5′ 9″ and 11 years old. (I won’t mention my weight, but it is the same as I weigh now.) Not remarkably tall for an adult woman, but awkwardly tall at that age.
It wasn’t only my height that set me apart though. It was my brain and the way it functioned, received, and processed data.
Aware I was always a visual learner, it wasn’t until adulthood and the birth of my oldest son that I really began to analyze the lenses I used to look at the world.
Knowing we were painfully similar at times, I began searching out answers to nurture his gifts at a really young age.
What type of energy will you contribute?
The word “energy” started presenting itself in many formats. One that would become a constant in my life as a mother, was “Your son is extremely high energy! He’s non-stop hyper. His mouth is never silent.”
Yes!! This was all quite accurate, but buried deep within that hyperactive, uniquely verbal, unsilencable tornado was a highly intelligent, profoundly gifted child. It became my mission to seek out ways for him to best be understood, and the other 3 children that followed as well.
In my early years, especially as a nurse, I had bought into the whole ADD/ADHD diagnosis. Now I know many of the psych diagnosis are only there to help Western medicine physicians categorize and medicate phenomenon that don’t make sense in this unnatural world.
Time, and critical nurse analysis, have caused me to come to the conclusion its not the individual that is “disordered,” its our society.
Our society is so out of balance with its natural order, that these children, and adults, who were born more tuned into their natural environment, are out of rhythm, out of sync with the false paradigm orchestrated around us.
I knew I was going against the grain back then, but I set out with a new intent. To raise my children so that society DOES NOT strip them of their spirit’s and the spiritual gifts bestowed upon them.
That conscious decision as a young adult has completely altered the way I look at life. I began to turn more inward, to my unique extraordinary self.
I DID see things differently, and having gone through a period where I had healed significant childhood scars, even more ENERGY was bestowed upon me.
It became my life’s high, seeking out opportunities where I could get that solid self-gratifying energy rush.
I knew a primary source was caring for others; my patients, their families, my children. People would ask how I could do what I did, give so freely from my heart, and my response was, “I do it for selfish reasons.” Because doing so makes me feel better.
Flash forward 30 years, and my initial discovery of “energy” has grown exponentially. Now it has other words I may use to describe it; chi, Prahna, Holy Spirit, ect. The life force that truly makes us human. The life force that is purposefully being drained from humanity. (But that’s a whole other article.)
Any more, at my age, absolutely everything I do, and all that I see is “energy” focused.
Decades ago, gradually leaving the world of 3-dimensional living, moving more directly into a 5-dimensional paradigm, with my visual acuity the strongest in the non-physical realms. Frequencies of higher consciousness that many might argue aren’t even real, I am capable of seeing as clear as any sun-filled day.
Consciously knowing that all I do is focused on cultivating and harvesting energy. In other words, living in the world of art and creativity. Whether its gardening, writing, crafting, nurturing a pet or family member, exercising. All that I do ends with the result of positive energy generated. And, in doing so, keeps me on a positive upward growth curve.
Knowingly, those skills and talents had been focused on my own self-healing, and that of my family for quite some time.
Last year, the first year to break that cycle. All “energy” generated was poured into my new creative sense of being, knowing my day to step up on a bigger platform was almost at hand.
The by-product of years of tending my fields for their best harvests paying off. There was nothing but bright lights and wide open spaces out in front of me.
I see this as no chance coincidence, the vision I had always shared with my sons, “We will be climbing above, when everyone else has fallen,” having come true. Though, never could I have imagined it so literally. Yet, I know God has prepared me for this time.
My Light within emitting more radiance than it ever has. The power of that energy just beginning to make itself known.
It’s all in the “Energy”. Staying aware of it, and moving it in the right direction. The time for me now … to take it over the top!
I know I have crazy talents lying dormant within me. The truth is, the majority of us do. The truth is the majority of us will never discover the great wealth we carry within because we’re so busy chasing material wealth, the novelties in 3-dimensional living.
A new paradigm has opened though. A new vision of the planet beginning to take shape. Each day more and more individuals waking up to that which has lied dormant within for a lifetime.
I move forward … my heart calm, my soul at peace, knowing inside me lies the power to change the world … and the drive to do so. I step out into the new year, 2021, filled with strength, courage, and grace. Time has come to step into myself because … Revolution Begins With Me.
Namaste.
Trust In The Plan
I’m not afraid to die. Especially not for my country.
A near death incident January 7th, 2005, I was given the option of crossing over, or staying on the planet, 100% committed to sharing my story and following God’s plan. I made my choice.
I had just turned 40, was the mother of 3 sons, the oldest a senior, the youngest in 3rd grade with a young life of severe behavior problems, and unknown to me, soon to be pregnant with my only daughter.
My life was in a million little pieces and I was suffering more pain than mentally, emotionally, and spiritually comprehensible.
I had already been through a lot. Divorce. Isolation from people who called themselves family. Becoming ill with what western medicine physicians called “chronic fatigue” (being a nurse and being tenacious I knew there was a different cause.) Later to learn and be treated for severe mercury poisoning by an alternative medicine DO. The suicide of my father, the only person in my life I could always count on, when I was 29 and finishing my last year of nursing school.
I was strong, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. and physically. Getting into body building at age 26 as a way to help eleviate the symptoms from my then undiagnosed heavy metal poisoning. I knew who I was and what I was made of.
So at this point, finding myself, the Phoenix, in ashes on the ground, I knew I could and I would rise stronger and more powerful than ever before. 100% certain of that because this time I let God do the leading.
I’ve spent the last 15 years healing my family, healing myself, and moving towards “THAT DAY”. “THAT DAY” when I would be asked to take the next steps to move out and share my message with the world.
Last year as my eldest 2 sons continued to impress me, not only with the success in their careers, (both finishing top of their class, going on to become engineers working in the computer/ technology world) but as strong confident men who gave back to the world around them. My youngest son, the one whose pre-kindergarten principal kicked him out of school and told me he “would be in an institution by the time he’s 15,” graduated from Navy bootcamp at the age of 23. Not just graduated though, but graduated top 3% out of over 1000 sailors. Proving not just to me, but most importantly to himself, what he is made of. (Having already had to jump through 6 months of hoops to even qualify for the Navy.)
I knew my time was at hand. My sons were all in amazing places. God was preparing me for my next steps. A fall and winter spent with glorious opportunities coming my way.
Then CoVid hit. And, as the rest of the country/ world went into a state of fear, a state of unrest, and panic, I continued to flourish. Knowing God had purposefully had me go through MY hard times so I would be ready for now.
The destruction of our country to a new level beginning in my home state of Minnesota. Parts of the rioting and burning happening near the hospital I used to work at.
A best friend, in the thick of the riots the first week as the local fire marshal and emergency Red Cross responder. Other friends living or working in the parts of the city being burned. All of it just confirming, MY time is near.
I had left the life of consumerism and avarice, returning to an “unplugged” version of living. And, I have been awake and watching the last 20 years as our country has been dismantled from the inside.
I have been waiting for THIS DAY because I knew it was coming. I sit in the solitude of my Oasis,, unaffected on a daily basis by what is happening out there, wondering how this will all play out.
For one thing is certain, we’re NEVER going back to what we were. The other thing that is certain, Americans’ lives are going to get a whole lot worse before they start to get better.
I sit in my Mystical Forest preparing for what is to come. Preparing to be “called” up to do my part to defend my country.
Hard times are here. Fortunately, I have had the foresight to raise and prepare my family on all levels. We are the warriors. And, I for one am ready to defend. Ready to die for my country because … The Revolution Begins With Me.
“Trust in Yourself”
All my adult life I’ve had this overwhelmingly strong connection to the Native American culture. The way they lived before white man came in and destroyed their land and their way of life.
Always in tune to wildlife and the animals I encountered. Respecting and finding the amazing beauty in all. No surprise, several decades ago when I first learned of animal totems, or spirit animals.
Animals from the turkey vulture to the coyote, bald eagle to moles, cranes to deer, (the day after the election the most wonderous stag!) all have been very wise council to me over the years.
This Sunday I was prompted to look a bit closer at a specific animal that’s been in my life all summer, but actually ended up getting backseat to a couple others.
We live in the country, relatively isolated, but next to us we have neighbors who now have a deserted barn. It sits right off our property line. A mother skunk decided it would be a great place to raise her family. Opening our windows most of the season was not an option.
One of our cats, the young inquisitive, overly friendly male, was the first to let us know they were around. I was to learn tomato juice does not actually cut the smell once sprayed.
Sunday, I discovered something had been in our garage. Monday I found the visitor. It was one of the skunk family members. He thought our garage a good new living space, the barn closed up for the winter.
Monday night I set a trap, Tuesday morning I found success. My daughter and I released it several miles away near a small pond. The amazing thing to me, through the whole ordeal, it never “raised a stink”. It just wanted to make me aware that the message it carried for me was building in importance.
The skunk is one of the most widely recognized mammals, but one of the most misunderstood. What wise council had it come to share?
He had several messages …
How to give respect, expect respect, and demand respect. But first, build up your self-confidence and develop your strength and sense of independence. You will have the respect to get where you wish to be.
Skunk moves along at its own pace. Self assured and confident. It wants to teach the same. Be more self-assured and know how to assert yourself. It presents the opportunity to become more confident with your interaction with others.
Skunk wants to teach us how to get more attention without being arrogant and irritating. Symbolizes the importance of being who you are and living authentically without caring about other’s opinions.
Skunks are fearless, but they are also very peaceful. They move slowly and calmly. They only spray as a last resort. Because they are peaceable by nature, they always give warnings before spraying. They teach us to meet life’s challenges with a calm and peaceful heart.
Skunks spray from the moment their eyes are open. This reflects the intense energy levels that individuals with this totem are often born with. They place an emphasis on being distinct. Trusting in yourself and living on your own terms by setting your own boundaries Walk your talk is the only way to set an example for others.
Their are both spotted and striped skunks. The striped the most common, with either a double or single stripe. This is an indication of the active flow of kundalini or life force. Individuals with this totem, the kundalini is usually already active. Skunk shows up at a time to amplify and to teach the control and use of t his life force more effectively.
A solitary animal for the most part, skunks remind us there are times best for drawing towards people and times best to avoid them. Finding the correct balance will bring prosperity. Also urges you to rely on yourself more.
Skunks are usually quite silent. It is good for those with this totem not to blow their own horns. Sit back and let others do the noticing for you. Skunks teach us when its best to be noticed and how to go about it most effectively.
When skunk shows up as a totem you are going to have opportunities to bring new respect and self-esteem in your life. Don’t worry about your reputation. Its only what you think of yourself that matters. The rest will follow.
You have the courage and will power to “raise a stink” and to make right something that is wrong. Justice needs to prevail at this time. You do not need to “spray” to be compelling. Your reputation proceeds you. Stand your ground calmly and with confidence.
What animals have entered your life in the physical world or in a dream? They are most likely trying to tell you something.
Animals bring me significant advice that is so relative when they do. Skunk was no exception. I needed to hear the message he brought.
I will always have my eyes and ears open, especially to the beauty of nature. One more step for my betterment because … the Revolution Begins With Me.
Notes taken from Animal Speak: The Spiritual & Magical Powers of Creatures Great & Small by Ted Andrews
Spirit Animals Totems https://www.spirit-animals.com/skunk-symbolism/
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